I had to get my oldest kitty put down today. The vet still isn't sure what was wrong with her. It's just left me really urgh. Her lymphnodes were swollen up so he thought she had cellulitis. We did a few days of antibiotics and Saturday she was showing improvement. But then this morning she had swollen back up again.
He is believes it was either a tumor or cancer in her lymphnodes. Either way, at her age, her being able to recover were slim. So Robbie and I made the hard decision to have her put down. I was with her in the vet's office and held her little paw while they did it. Once it was done I swaddled her in the towel they had her laying on and just... cried and cried and cried.
My other kitties have been huddling around Robbie and me. I'm guessing it's because they know we're upset but just don't know why. :(
I need help locating a movie that contains a quote.... The movie was NOT one of those chick flick movies, and the quote was dealing on what someone sees as beautiful and they were using the example of a person. And one of the characters said something about the face being nothing more that lines and curves (maybe angles?) and that over time, if you love someone that the lines and ect become beautiful in the eyes of the person that in in love with them...
vague description is vague. I've tried google-ing it but all I get is wiki's about Trouble with Curves and Real Women have curves >_>
Perhaps it will also help if I mention that it's a slightly older movie, maybe mid-to-late 90's? And it wasn't one of those BIG TIME movies... I'm thinking its one of those fringe type movies like What's Eating Gilbert Grape and ect (ie: not a big action film, not a chick flick, not a romantic drama comedy...) that were intended just to tell a story.
It's weird but the quote has been trying to bust out of my brain for a few weeks now and it's driving me nuts... because, in essence, this quote is something that I heard at a certain point in my life and it generally became one of those things that became ingrained as part of my personality (or maybe it could just be partially I liked the quote because it was how I saw things as well? who knows...)
Any help would be appreciated!
I have nowhere in which I can really vent. I make the mistake of, no matter where I blog/ect, inviting ppl from my personal life to have access to it. And, tbh, lately I have a lot in which to vent about. But that's neither here nor there.
It's pointless to vent and flail about things beyond my control. But I WILL, however, say that things are starting to look up on the Anna front.
I have managed to work a good deal on my book. My characters and the arc are going in a way I never really thought it would--seriously, brain, zombies/steampunk/mythology all rolled into one? what are you smoking and why wasn't the rest of me invited?--
As of tax time this coming year, should the world not cease to exist or blow up, I shall be paying off a student loan that has prevented me from returning to college for almost ten years. After this is done i shall beeeee... returning to school to become a gunsmith. Roberto and I have decided that Trinidad State University in Colorado would best suite our needs.
So yeah... I shall be moving to Colorado soon! :D
There is still some debate as to whether I will finish up my associates prior to going to take up gunsmith school or if I should jump in feet first and just stick with Trinidad the entire rest of the way for my education. So far the whole get-my-associates-first thing is looking the most favourable.
Anyone that knows me, knows that I do not have a particular fondness for guns. Well, to be honest, I do dislike them. BUT I have also decided to take up hunting (in a sense that I am trying to get robbie and me to be more self-sufficient, rather than being able to pop down to the store anytime we want something). While, personally, I have a particular fondness for the ancient art of bow hunting and ect, most of the hunters I know are gun hunters, which can make for awkwardness while hunting. And I'm wanting to stick mainly to your classic rifles, instead of assault rifles for hunting. And I am actually going to be taking a course on proper handling for handguns (just in case I get my dream job as a security guard at the local nuclear plant which would require me to be armed). My aim is rather good, despite never really ever handling guns.
But I am mostly wanting to take up being a gun smith because it's a dying craftsmanship. I'd be learning a craft which can actually end up leading to other artistic type endeavors. And, living in America... if there's one thing Americans love, it's their guns... so yeah the job market would be fairly easy to make a living. The additional bonus is that it helps me with my writing. Not to mention, if I don't end up getting my own shop after my apprenticeship, there's always getting a gov't job with my certifications ;)
(BTW we totally bombed on getting the house, financing fell through because of some funds we came into that we couldn't explain D:. But in all that is probably a good thing considering we'll be moving to Colorado soon).
I have been busy busy busy the past month or so...
Robbie and I have moved out of his parents' house and are back in an apartment for the time being. It's the old one we had back in '09 so yeah it's quite lovely, although the furniture we brought with us is much nicer.
But as for the "for the time being" part...
We're trying to get a house :-3 (for a rough look at our adventures in finding "the one" you can look HERE
on my fb)
The one we're trying for is (IMO) a little out of our price range, BUT the Realtor said that we could always try to get it for a lower cost. It's eligible for the FHA $100 down payment and all we gotta do is slap in a refrigerator, stove, and some other furniture and we're good to go. I had a severe O.o; look on my face when the mortgage broker told me my credit scores. I was like "Meeeeh?!?!?! Really?" because they were a lot better than I had thought they were, they're not FABULOUS mind you, but they are okay enough for FHA to consider lending to us. But I did find out that all I gotta do is pay off one old doctor's bill (from where I thought insurance had paid everything but HAHA they didn't ¬_¬ assholes.)and that would actually help boost it a little bit more. But cannot do the credit card means of boosting for a few months as I cannot have anything new pop up on my credit report while we're trying for this house.
I've also been busily writing on my novel. I have once again decided to change a few things up, so far it's looking better and making more sense.
I got a new nephew the other day. He's cute as a button.
I also sort of got a new kitty... O.o; this is #4. This one is actually our roommates, but me thinks she is going to remain with us once he moves off to college. So now we've got Ruby, Merlin, Nugget, and Dixie.
I made this tonight and it was absolutely fantastic. I stole it from my MiL's Ultimate Ground Beef Cookbook. The recipe says it only feeds 2 but I somehow got enough to feed 4 and the only thing I did different was throw in an extra mushroom and used a small can of tomato sauce instead of measuring out half a cup.
Meatballs with vegetable sauce
1 egg yolk, lightly beaten
1 tablespoon milk
3 tablespoons light bread crumbs
2 tablespoons finely chopped onion
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 pound ground beef (or other reasonable replacement)
1/4 cup slice fresh mushrooms
1/4 cup chopped celery
3 tablespoons chopped onion
3 tablespoons chopped green pepper
1 teaspoon butter
1/2 cup tomato sauce
2 tablespoons brown sugar
2 tablespoons beef broth
4 teaspoons lemon juice
1/8 garlic powder (or to taste)
hot cooked noodles
In a bowl, combine first five ingredients.
Crumble raw meat over mixture and blend well. Shape into 1-inch balls. Place meatballs on a greased rack in a shallow baking pan. Bake, uncovered, at 425º for 10-12 minutes or util no longer pink.
Meanwhile, in a saucepan, saute mushrooms, celery, onion, and green pepper in butter. Add tomato sauce, brown sugar, broth, lemon juice, and garlic powder. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat; add meatballs. Cover and simmer for 15 minutes or until thoroughly heated.
Serve over noodles.
I have been busy busy busy...
between work and everything else I have been over taxed emotionally and time wise... so this weekend I took some time out and just relaxed.
As a result I finally have been able to get my brain coherent enough to update "The Triunity Complex" over at creativelullaby
... next on the agenda is to get the fourth story cleaned up and finished--I have chapter two of "Back to Blackpool" about half done and about 1/3 on chapter three done up. Once TTC is done, I have no idea what I am gonna do as far as fic is concerned. May finish up a few odd and end fics I had in the works.
Because TBH I can't get my brain to focus on writing my novel at the moment and fic seems like a good option to at least keep my brain actively writing.
In other news...
I haven't decided yet but I may end up going into Anger Management sessions to help me curb my ARRRGH HULK SMASH RAAAAAAGE. But considering my self therapy is writing and I rarely have time to do it... I don't see it being effective which is my drawback.
I now the proud owner of a PS3, Wii, and a Xbox360. Been kicking some ass on GoW3, building mah brain, dancing, and exercising with the 360, and... I'm not sure what I will be doing with the Wii just yet (though it will probably involving boxing)... either that or playing Mario Kart.
I already know I want to get Kingdom Hearts and Little Big Planet... any other rec's for a PS3?
What about the Wii? I'm already planning to get Epic Mickey and Cooking Mama... and other "must have games"?
Welcome to Random Facts about Anna! My futile attempt to try and do more frequent updates despite FB sucking out my soul. I will try to do it daily but no promises... Also if you have a question or curiosity about me, feel free to ask in the comments :)
Today's Random Fact is:
I don't much care for chocolate.
I don't have an allergy or anything, I just don't like it. I'll eat it if it's put down in front of me, but I don't go seeking it out purposely. And getting me to eat a block of plain chocolate is like asking someone to get a root canal.
My tolerance for chocolate comes in the form of it being mixed with other things such as almonds or peanut butter. Though in a pinch, I will suck on a small cube of dark or unsweet chocolate, which leads me to think it's primarily the sweetness of most chocolate that's off-putting.
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Red Velvet cake, Cream Cheese frosting. All homemade... then I got the wild hair to decorate it with left over frosting. There's still about 3/4 of the cake left. But everyone at tonight's Christmas gathering gave it good reviews. I think I shall go snag me a slice before going to bed.
In the words of John Lennon "I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind."
Seriously. The people here are stupid. I want to get away from them. Unfortunately, I have yet to find a country where their citizens don't have the same complaint. And they won't allow me to live in Antarctica.
Maybe I should see about getting on the first manned exploration team to seek out a planet that is human friendly... and learn everything there is to do on board the ship, then kill everyone on board.